他搖著尾巴依然帶著微笑的表情
他的微笑忽然讓我感到憂傷
我無法擁有這隻魚
有些故事讓別人去傳唱
有些故事讓自己去感想
等我安安靜靜的回到自己的心臟
才看到你自由的慾望 也是自己的隱藏
有些故事已深刻在天堂
有些故事已模糊在遠方
等到你洋洋灑灑回到該去的路上
才理解我內心的渴望 終於長出了翅膀
所以我微笑 所以我飛翔
於是我活進了你自己
當時間都掛在沉睡的灰牆
我在廣大的海洋為自己鼓掌
當宇宙都泡在寧靜的魚缸
我在星星面前快活的流浪
今日的嚮往開成明日的花
明日的迷惘帶來回憶的光
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我好想好想在夜深人静的时候散步。。
我才发现，我有多么想念自己或跟朋友漫无目的的在公园或城市的马路旁散步。
This few days I've been thinking about the choices I made, that shaped my life as it is today. 12 years ago when I was in primary one, I asked my mum groggily on the first day of school: Ma, how many more days do I have to study? And now, I'm at the end of the journey. It wasn't days, it took years. Everything seemed so near yet kind of blur.
The turn in my education journey was when I decided to go to jc and take up subjects which I've not come across before. Over time, people have asked me why I take up chinese lit, it seems so weird to others. To me the answer was simple: I like chinese. To me, liking something gives me enough reason to pursue it, why ask about big dreams and goals? Isn't passion the key to a fufilling life? What is little about that?
Anyway, I ceased to probe further into why I took up chinese lit and china studies until a week ago. Today, I know the answer.
After secondary school, I found out that I really enjoy reading chinese novels in particular 藤井树. I admire the way he expresses feelings in a simple yet concise manner.Gucheng and Tagore for their poems which are childlike yet bringing wonder. I enjoyed their works and never fail to be awed at their way of thinking. Though I couldn't thoroughly comprehend the poem, I was moved. I wanted to be able to understand better, I wanted to think like them, I wanted to be like them. And that was why I took up Chinese literature.
As for china studies, after I came back from Dabo village in 2007, I really missed the place. Somehow I was emotionally attached to a place I stayed for a week. I realised that I didn't know much about the place, albeit ignorant of a place I love. So I decided to get to know china more. Moreover I was sick of having no opinions on current issues and whatever. How can I claim to love a place and say that I live on earth when I don't know what's happening? I guess I just hate the feeling of being stupid.I still remember how vast the information seemed when I first tried to get to know china. What the.. there were so many things! The country was so happening! So many people, so many problems and so many miracles. Though I'm still lacking, I'm glad I took this route, I got to know my forefathers' home better:)
My biggest take from this two years is that realizing that I lack is the most effective way to change.
In short, I hate being ignorant and worst, not realizing it.
他的微笑忽然讓我感到憂傷
我無法擁有這隻魚
有些故事讓別人去傳唱
有些故事讓自己去感想
等我安安靜靜的回到自己的心臟
才看到你自由的慾望 也是自己的隱藏
有些故事已深刻在天堂
有些故事已模糊在遠方
等到你洋洋灑灑回到該去的路上
才理解我內心的渴望 終於長出了翅膀
所以我微笑 所以我飛翔
於是我活進了你自己
當時間都掛在沉睡的灰牆
我在廣大的海洋為自己鼓掌
當宇宙都泡在寧靜的魚缸
我在星星面前快活的流浪
今日的嚮往開成明日的花
明日的迷惘帶來回憶的光
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我好想好想在夜深人静的时候散步。。
我才发现，我有多么想念自己或跟朋友漫无目的的在公园或城市的马路旁散步。
This few days I've been thinking about the choices I made, that shaped my life as it is today. 12 years ago when I was in primary one, I asked my mum groggily on the first day of school: Ma, how many more days do I have to study? And now, I'm at the end of the journey. It wasn't days, it took years. Everything seemed so near yet kind of blur.
The turn in my education journey was when I decided to go to jc and take up subjects which I've not come across before. Over time, people have asked me why I take up chinese lit, it seems so weird to others. To me the answer was simple: I like chinese. To me, liking something gives me enough reason to pursue it, why ask about big dreams and goals? Isn't passion the key to a fufilling life? What is little about that?
Anyway, I ceased to probe further into why I took up chinese lit and china studies until a week ago. Today, I know the answer.
After secondary school, I found out that I really enjoy reading chinese novels in particular 藤井树. I admire the way he expresses feelings in a simple yet concise manner.Gucheng and Tagore for their poems which are childlike yet bringing wonder. I enjoyed their works and never fail to be awed at their way of thinking. Though I couldn't thoroughly comprehend the poem, I was moved. I wanted to be able to understand better, I wanted to think like them, I wanted to be like them. And that was why I took up Chinese literature.
As for china studies, after I came back from Dabo village in 2007, I really missed the place. Somehow I was emotionally attached to a place I stayed for a week. I realised that I didn't know much about the place, albeit ignorant of a place I love. So I decided to get to know china more. Moreover I was sick of having no opinions on current issues and whatever. How can I claim to love a place and say that I live on earth when I don't know what's happening? I guess I just hate the feeling of being stupid.I still remember how vast the information seemed when I first tried to get to know china. What the.. there were so many things! The country was so happening! So many people, so many problems and so many miracles. Though I'm still lacking, I'm glad I took this route, I got to know my forefathers' home better:)
My biggest take from this two years is that realizing that I lack is the most effective way to change.
In short, I hate being ignorant and worst, not realizing it.
Haha I'm missing the village too. The quietness, the serenity, the simplicity, and our camaradarie. I keep thinking of organising a trip back but I realise afterwards that the difficulty of it all is too foreboding. We've all drifted apart. We have no way of going there together again. Maybe in the future, but not now. But i'm still missing the village and reminiscing those days. Haha.
Posted by: jinzo | 12/16/2009 at 07:42 PM
ah it's nice to know that you miss the days too:) things just seemed so simple yea? It's inevitable to drift apart. Hopefully we will be able to get together some day in the future.. For now you prepare for ns ba!
Posted by: Ham | 12/21/2009 at 12:38 AM